Episode 37
Translator : Missme Editor : Aru
“It’s not like that. I just spilled it by mistake.”
I know he was teasing me, but it felt little pricking. I turned the topic naturally while pretending not to.
“What’s wrong with your face?”
“My face?”
“I think you need a handkerchief to wipe your face. You look really tired.”
“Oh, this is… It’s not a big deal, maybe because I’ve had some arm wrestling.”
“Arm wrestling?”
“Because someone suggested it. Just a thing to do when bored people with physical strength gather together. Plus, they are so competitive……”
With a tired expression, Sir Davery turned his right shoulder lightly to loosen it. I don’t know, but it seemed like he had a hard time.
“If you think something good, you won’t feel bored.”
“Well, it is. How was the party?”
The carriage that passed the gate ran smoothly through the night. I left my body to the shaking carriage and opened my mouth.
“As usual.”
“Did everything go well?”
“Well…….”
I can say that there are some problems, but the story is just difficult to tell.
I looked out the carriage window.
Suddenly
‘I was surprised.’
I was really surprised before. On the terrace.
The wind that just blew, the subtle illusion, and somehow the meaningful words from the prince.
A strange atmosphere filled the space. I didn’t know how embarrassed I was at the time. I didn’t see the mirror, but my eyes probably shook quite a bit.
‘I almost misunderstood it.’
On second thought, it was disdainful.
Could it be that I have been paralyzed and deluded myself in that short moment? As a result, that kind of thought flowed in an instant.
‘I almost doubted that the Crown Prince was interested in me.’
Fortunately, a couple accidentally came to the terrace, and the mysterious atmosphere was scattered.
I came to my senses thanks to it.
And when I came to my senses, I was able to think reasonably. It was a close call.
The Prince’s line, which felt significant, was not necessarily so, and he’s not that cold-hearted too.
Do I think he would be happy to have me help him? He just expressed his intention to pay back the help in a polite manner.
And the meaning of what he said that he was looking forward to how it will be different next time? It’s a similar greeting to ‘See you next time’.
And there was nothing strange even if I was really looking forward to it. When he saw me in the temple, I had a completely different impression of a person after a few days, and I would have been purely curious if I had not known about the enchanted cloth.
‘I mean, it was all meaningless.’
I was swept away by the atmosphere that encroached the terrace and misheard it as if there was something.
A heartfelt sense of relief poured in again inside. It was really fortunate that the couple broke in just in time.
If that didn’t happen, and if I was still distracted and mistook him then saying, “Your Highness, I’m sorry.”.
“…….”
I got a shudder. I shiver by only imagining it.
I rubbed my arm without realizing it, and Sir Davery asked if I was feeling cold. I shook my head and asked.
“Sir, have you ever done that?”
“What is ‘that’?”
“The situation is not like that, but you mistook it by yourself. I mean, the other person didn’t have that kind of feeling, but you were the only one who misunderstood and thought of it.”
Sir Davery is handsome. I seemed to have mentioned it before, but he was handsome enough to turn the heads when he passed by. In addition, he is tall and feels distant, so he looks more handsome.
He must be really popular. And such popularity sometimes unintentionally leads to an embarrassing side effect of excessive self-consciousness.
Half the question was based on the intention of making fun of him, but Sir Davery answered it right away, with no sign of agonizing.
“Why do I make such a mistake?”
“Huh? You’re pretty sure.”
“Because it’s true. I’ve never misunderstood such a thing. Originally, I could easily know it if I saw it.”
Sir Davery acted as if he could not understand. He was like a relaxed and experienced love expert.
“Sir, I somehow hate you.”
“What? Why is this…..but I’m telling you, anyway. I can know it clearly if I just look at it. Well, if other people don’t, it’s because I’m especially sensible in this area.”
Then Sir Davery stared at me. When I responded with a look of whether he had something to say, the words continued.
“So if you have a person in mind, you can talk to me. I’ll read that person’s mind more accurately than anyone else.”
“Thanks for your talent donation, doctor, but it won’t happen.”
“You don’t know about people’s hearts.”
“I really don’t have that kind of person.”
I laughed slightly. Is this kind of love counselling? I can’t afford to do anything like that.
‘Yes, what is my situation? I can’t afford to like someone and take care of it while I’m too busy to stay alive in the future.’
That’s why I don’t get married or engaged at this age. There’s a reason why I avoid meeting people. It’s not because I need to hold Ash’s ankle like someone’s delusion. Huh?
‘I know, but…..’
The carriage rattled a little. I got my eyes out of the window again, and suddenly I thought about it.
“……I wasn’t interested in that area either.”
The first time I learned about my miserable future was when I was seventeen. After that, I thought survival came first, so I didn’t pay attention to dating, but even before that, I wasn’t interested particularly.
Even if the other person showed interest first at meetings or banquets, I was always embarrassed and anxious. No matter how popular the other person was with the opposite sex.
Was it because people in their mid to late teens looked young to me when I remembered my past lives? But I wasn’t even interested in a person who was three or four years older.
‘I wasn’t like that in my previous life.’
Back then, I had a normal boyfriend. Dating with no less love like other people doing. I was like that when I was in middle school and high school. I got caught wrong by a stalker before I got into college and started dating…..
‘Hold on. Is that why?’
Sneakily collected the thought. Is it because of that? Is it because of my death in my previous life caused by a stalker that my interest in men itself has disappeared?
‘I suppose so.’
It was credible. Well, whatever it is, there must be a reason.
On the terrace earlier, when I was confused about whether the prince, who is handsome and perfect, could be sublimated into charm even if I interpret it well, was interested in me, I was in a difficult situation, let alone excited.
Wouldn’t there be a reason for such an iron wall? I know the unchangeable truth that handsome men are beneficial to the eyes and mind.
‘By the way, that damned stalker criminal XX isn’t helping in this life either.’
No, I can’t afford to do that, but he helped me by not letting me pay attention to useless things.
‘Well, let’s say so. If the stalker was dead anyway.’
Please, punish him by burning him with wheels.
In the midst of such thoughts, the carriage arrived at the house.
I returned home rather tired. Needless to say, the party made me feel wet, and somehow I felt more tired because of what I had been through.
With the help of the maid, I changed my clothes, washed up, and lay down on the bed like I was about to fall. I buried my face in a pillow and let out a complicated breath.
‘I spent the day like this, but…..’
A day’s escape was enough. This is how it went today. However, from tomorrow, I had to face the reality that had no answer coming back.
I blinked my eyes. The blind view of the pillow covering my eyes was like my future.
I tear off the innocent pillow and soon droop. Maybe it’s because I’m tired, but I don’t even have more energy to vent my anger.
‘Damn enchanted cloth.’
The damned secret of birth.
‘Damn psychopath.’
The damn world.
“All damn……”
All I could do was curse and at one point I fell asleep.
I had a dream. The content did not remain in my memory, but for some reason, it seemed that it was a dream that was bitter that a corner of my heart seemed to be black.
I pretended to be like that because of a yawning, and eventually let the teardrop out of the eyes.
***
I fell asleep with a lot of curses, but when I woke up, I was the only one who was ruined.
It was a harsh reality.
‘Why is the world not going to end?… ‘
As soon as I woke up, I thought I wanted to stop thinking.
Once again, the situation was simply hopeless.
‘The enchanted cloth that I stole as much as I could is useless, and Ash has no favour in Ari, so he might kill her if she slips now, and the secret of my birth remains, and the way to run away is a long way to go.’
Why is the world really like this to me? I didn’t particularly want to move today, perhaps because I had that gloomy thought in the morning.
It’s breakfast, so I have to eat. After a short thought, I decided to enjoy breakfast in my room instead of going down to the dining room for a long time.
To put it plainly, I stood up and lazed without moving a muscle.
To mention this, it was all the laziness that I could enjoy again thanks to Dylan’s presence in the mansion.
If Dylan’s keeping Ari by her side early in the morning and Ari doesn’t have to come out of the room to see me at this hour, that means I don’t have to leave the room.
The breakfast menu prepared by the chef was shrimp cream soup and a shrimp sprout salad.
Well, the sprouts are fresh. Is it because it’s a sprout? I was filling my stomach with a simple but not lacking breakfast, when Bessie, who was watching me eat without leaving the room for some reason, opened her mouth.
“Lady.”
“Huh?”
“I found a luggage bag in your room yesterday.”
‘Luggage bag?’
“The one you hid in the closet.”
“Cough!”
“I thought I’d have to clean up your room while you were out so………. Oh my, lady, are you okay?”
“Cough cough!”
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