Re:Zero Kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu

Volume 4, Chapter 36 [At The End Of Incomprehension]

――The moment he was ejected from the door, Subaru felt a sense of weightlessness as though the sky and the earth had been reversed.

[Subaru: ――Oooguaah!?]

The pain of his back striking the solid ground wrenched out all the air from his lungs and left his throat gasping for breath. Carried on by the momentum, he went tumbling across the floor and was only stopped by smashing into a wall. Shaking his head to cast off the ejected sensation, still dazzled from the pain, Subaru lifted his face and opened his eyes.

[Subaru: Beatrice…… hg]

Giving voice to the name of the girl whose name he failed to call at their parting, it was already too late for it to reach her.

The moment Door Crossing was activated, an insurmountable gap had been opened between them. Her rejection was so fierce and deep that Subaru’s voice could no longer touch her.

[Subaru: Why do I…… always……!]

Was there really no way for him to realize his own mistakes except by failing and picking the worst possible choice?

All he wanted was to take the optimal actions leading to the best possible future, but why was he always too weak, foolish and insufficient?

[Subaru: What are you doing with a Gospel…… just, what’s with you……!?]

The existence of the black-bound book in her hands――the Gospel decisively opened a distance between them.

Until this point, Subaru had been convinced that despite the short amount of time he and Beatrice had spent together, there was certainly “Something” that existed between them.

Even though they were always taunting each other, expressing their mutual displeasure at seeing each other, Subaru nonetheless believed that as long as there was that something, things could never come to an end between them.

But that was only presumption. Conceit. Misaligned understanding in the extreme.

Subaru’s conviction was nothing more than the product of his self-satisfaction, and Beatrice never held any sentiments towards him except the literal meanings of her words. She was merely following the Gospel’s orders, and was only putting up with Subaru in order to fulfill her purpose. All the while, in her heart, she was indifferent, or even despised him.

[Subaru: ……is that really how it is?]

The bond he thought was there was declared to be nonexistent, and his attempts to deny it were cut off by Beatrice’s angered cries.

As Subaru imagined, their connection was confirmed to be counterfeit. She had never been moved in the slightest by Subaru’s existence, and there was only ever the sense of necessity behind her actions.

[Subaru: All those times you smiled, got mad, or protected me…… were they all just some lies written in a script……?]

How is that possible, Subaru’s brittle heart still denied it. In that final moment, Beatrice’s tearful voice at their parting had drawn a mist over the veracity of her words.

No matter what, it was still too early for him to come to that conclusion.

[Subaru: Who cares if it’s written inside some book, all I remember is that you saved me…… nothing can change that fact. It’s a debt that only I remember]

In the loops beginning in the Mansion, more than once, Subaru had been saved by Beatrice.

There were all those times when he loitered in the Forbidden Library to gather his thoughts after Return by Death, and when she more literally saved his life when he was littered with the Mabeasts’ curses. And, in that lost world where he had allowed Rem to die, when he was hounded by Ram and Roswaal, she went so far as to twist the meaning of their offhand verbal contract in order to protect him.

Even if that great debt no longer existed anywhere in this world, it still remained within Subaru’s heart.

[Subaru: That time…… I was glad]

Even when he was convinced that there was no one left on his side, she saved him nonetheless.

When he thought Rem and Ram were his enemies, when he couldn’t fathom Roswaal’s intentions, and when he was worn to his core when even Emilia couldn’t completely trust him, Beatrice alone had saved him.

Just how much that temporary, transient contract had saved him was beyond what words could convey, and a kindness he could never fully repay.

[Subaru: I’ll repay that debt. I still don’t know whether you loaned it to me of your own free will, or if you were following that book’s wishes…… but I’ll find out]

Obviously, he could no longer ask her now after she had so firmly rejected him. So, since Subaru’s resolve no longer held any meaning in this world, it will just have to be carried over to the next one.

He held up his right arm. Hand missing three of its fingers. Shoulder and hip twinging. Head banged up. And tongue slightly shortened. Every last one dealt him pain impossible to forget.

He saw Rem beneath his closed eyelids. And Petra. And Frederica. And Beatrice, with her back turned to him. And, at last, there was Emilia.

――Everything that Subaru had failed to grasp because of his mistakes in this world.

In order to retrieve what was lost, he will commit himself to do what he must. To continue what Beatrice had interrupted, and once again dive into that spiral,

[Subaru: ――――]

Subaru held out his shortened tongue and gathered the resolve to bite into it once more.

But, just the thought of his botched suicide resurrected his anguish, and seized him with fear once more. Hesitation surfaced, and his legs began to tremble. Word games like resolve are worthless when faced with the end.

Holding back such counterproductive emotions, overcoming the unsurpassable dread of impending death and praying to be returned to a time when he could still fix everything, Subaru shut his eyes for the final moment――

[Subaru: ……where… is this place?]

He realized that the room where Door Crossing had dumped him was a place he had never seen before.

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To Subaru, this was an unknown space completely different from the familiar Roswaal Mansion.

Damp stone slabs, and grimy walls covered in sprawling ivy. Randomly arranged tables with rusted metal tools scattered over them that evoked unease by sight.

And above all,

[Subaru: Uu――!?]

A dense, putrid stench, which, once noticed, could no longer be severed from his mind.

It was different from the rotten stench of organic waste, but there was no other way to describe it but as a horrid rotting stench that injected him with the urge to vomit. Quickly covering his mouth, Subaru’s empty stomach retched out all of its fluids.

Seeing the yellow stomach bile splashing onto the floor, panting, Subaru glared through his surroundings. The more he looked, the stranger the unknown space appeared.

A dark room covered by stone slabs, its space was about twice the area of the drawing room in Roswaal’s Mansion. It wasn’t large enough to be considered spacious, but it couldn’t be called cramped either.

Strewn about one corner of the room were tables with mysterious instruments scattered on top, and opposite the tables―― littering the vast majority of the room, were,

[Subaru: Broken tables and… crystals……? Crystals or, fragments of magic minerals? And then this hole……]

Looking at the ground before him, there were carcasses of broken tables and deactivated magic crystals scattered across the floor, and even further ahead, was a wide, gaping hole about four meters in diameter. In the absence of sufficient lighting, it was all the more impossible to gauge the true depth of the pitfall.

If he turned up his head, he would see pale blue light emanating from glowing moss on the walls. Like the ones growing freely in the forests, they absorb mana from the atmosphere to fuel their light. The forests surrounding the Mansion were spared from absolute darkness by the light of these very same moss along with the light of the stars.

Feeling his way across the floor with the aid of moss-light, enduring the unpleasant sensation of moisture soaking into his pants and the slime sticking to his palms, he peeked into the depths of the hole.

A quiet, cold wind swept up from below, carrying a nose-turning―― or rather, nose-demolishing stench along with it.

[Subaru: Uu…… pugh. Not having the courage to look inside would’ve been the correct choice, huh…… what is that smell?]

If it had been a stench characteristic of something harboring life, then Subaru’s imagination might have turned to the worst. But this rising stench was something different from that of rotting flesh, and was closer to a strong chemical smell.

Like the sensation of sniffing some stringent medicine, a painful shock jolted his nose. The stench rising from the dark bottom of this pit was wholly unlike the scent of any living organism.

[Subaru: ――something else]

Both physically and mentally unwilling to check the bottom of the pit again, Subaru wiped off his nose and consciously breathed through his mouth as he looked around the room.

The first thing his eyes landed on were the scattered carcasses of tables and expended magic crystals. The metal tables seemed to have been crushed by some tremendous impact, and the magic crystals appeared to have been stacked on the tables before that. Slowly flipping over one of the mangled tables, he noticed some sort of pattern engraved on its surface.

[Subaru: Looks like…… some kind of magic circle……]

Magic circles like this show up quite a lot in Alternate-World Fantasy genres, but Subaru couldn’t recall seeing anything similar since coming to this world. Basically, the magic in this world passes through living bodies to interfere with the outside world, and aside from magic lamps and Metias, Subaru had yet to find any exceptions.

So he was quite surprised to find a magic circle here, but,

[Subaru: Actually, does it even do anything? If it does, then…… why would they leave the circle in a place like this……]

Could it be that the magic couldn’t be activated here directly, and was instead meant to serve some remote functionality? Or perhaps it was some kind of system to run the spell continuously without the caster being present?

[Subaru: If that was the case, it’d explain why there’re so many used up magic crystals next to it]

After the magic crystals serving as its energy source were depleted, the magic circle lost its power―― that would be the most plausible explanation. But, despite reaching this conclusion, what Subaru still did not understand was the true purpose of the hole and the broken tables. Nor could he completely rule out the possibility that the room had been purposely designed to explode in the event that the spell was interrupted.

Regardless,

[Subaru: In the end… I still have no idea where I am]

A dark hole seemingly going down forever. A magic circle used for some kind of spell, surrounded by magic crystals. Looking over the rotting, putrid room, he saw another tipped-over table in the corner―― and picked up one of the rusted metal tools beside it.

Resembling a plier or nipper, it was the kind of utensil one might use when crafting plastic models. It was covered in the same slime that was smeared across the floor, and, more importantly, perhaps due to the passage of time in which it had spent in disuse, it disintegrated into dust at the touch of Subaru’s hand.

Not only the tools, but the table was in the same condition. After years upon years of exposure, its bent legs had deteriorated to the brink of dust, and when he nudged it with his foot with the slightest force, it lost its shape and transformed into powdered iron.

There was no other information to be gained beyond that. But if there was just one point he could not get out of his mind, it would be,

[Subaru: The way this was destroyed, and its timing, was drastically different from the table in front of the hole……]

Unlike the one which had become brittle from the passage of time before welcoming its collapse, the table beside the hole was obviously crushed by some destructive force. And, judging from the state of the ground beneath it, its destruction came extremely recently―― probably within the last few days.

[Subaru: A room destroyed…… by whom, and why……]

Muttering this question, Subaru suddenly realized that his thinking was somewhat ridiculous.

What was the point of asking this? It was not the kind of question that could be answered by thinking alone, and more importantly, the problems that Subaru had to deal with were already more than his arms could hold.

He mustn’t allow himself to be weighed down by small matters in between the large, which would only serve to hasten his collapse. Above all, the very act of distracting his attention away was nothing more than desperately dragging out the unbearable agony of the time before his impending suicide.

But, even recognizing this unopposable sense of “Shame”, Subaru could not pull himself away from the strangeness of this room. At this point, there was something very important right in front of him――

[Subaru: ――――]

Guided by an inexplicable certainty, Subaru felt his way forward, turning his head about, searching for the room’s exit. Since he was brought here by “Door Crossing, this room must have a closeable door that tossed him out.

At last, Subaru found the door that had so rudely dropped him off―― a small flap installed on the upper part of the wall, perhaps used for ventilation or the likes.

Other than that, he could see nothing else that could be considered an exit. The official door might be on the other side of the collapsed pit―― in the opposite, unreachable end of the room.

When this fact finally sank in, Subaru had to give up on the notion of leaving in any conventional way. Wiping off the sweat and the unknown slime stuck to his palms onto his pants, he held his breath as he reached his fingers towards the flap.

The flap was at a height he had to stretch up on his tiptoes to reach, and its size would be closest to a garbage disposal chute. Although it wasn’t too narrow for a person to pass through, it wasn’t so luxurious that Subaru could fit through easily.

After some struggling owing to his maimed right hand, the rusted flap creaked open, and the effort to maneuver his body into the narrow tunnel began. The tunnel was the width of a ventilation pipe. In the worst case, he imagined it’d be a paradise for insect and rats, but it turned out to be surprisingly clean―― or, not exactly, but at least the fact that the dusty passage was free of living critters was a saving grace.

It took about three minutes before he passed through the tunnel. He got used to the crawling about halfway through, and just as his movements started getting smooth, he found himself at the finishing line. Popping out in the room connected by the ventilation tunnel, Subaru jumped down in the same manner, and started looking over his surroundings. He took the greatest caution to make sure there wasn’t another pit here, but,

[Subaru: It’s got a different vibe from the previous one. Compared to the one that looked like a lab this one’s more like a waiting room]

Only about a half of a half of the size of the previous room, it appeared to be a room whose sole purpose was to be passed through. Other than two walk-though-on-the-ground type of doors, there was nothing else in the room. Certainly, it was a waiting room-esque room.

It’d be perfect if there was a coffee table with some magazines stacked on it――

[Subaru: Judging by the direction I came from, the other side of this door would be…… yeah]

Turning the knob and pushing open the door, he was greeted by the collapsed pit in front of his eyes. Seeing this death-trap situation, Subaru spilled a small sigh and closed the door again for the sake of his mental health. ――And, smelling the putrid stench seeping into this room, he kicked himself for not being quicker with his decision.

Then, quietly turning around, this time he faced the opposite door. Behind that door, would be a space completely unknown to Subaru――

[Subaru: …………hg]

The sweat on his palm that was supposed to have been wiped off and the cold sweat dripping down his back became unbearable.

Since he didn’t know what was beyond that door, he could only imagine and prepare for the worst.

[Subaru: If…… this is inside the Mansion, then……]

Although it could just be another room he had never seen before, it was also possible that the moment he opened this door, he would find Elsa on the other side. If he did come face to face with that murderer, Subaru was not so confident that he’d be able to stay calm.

Even the impulse of “You Need To Die Immediately” insisting on his suicide could not help but transform into teeth-shattering hatred at that reminder.

Just the thought that the deviant whose blade killed Petra, Frederica―― and Rem, might be there tormented Subaru’s mind with rage surging to a boil.

Like a curse, a part of him wished that she was there, while a pathetic craving for life hoped that she was not. Wavering between the two extremes, Subaru’s mouth contorted into a wicked grin,

[Subaru:――――]

Whether she’s there, or not there, this deranged emotion would not be betrayed.

At the end of his thoughts’ departure from sanity, faced with the world that opened before him,

[Subaru: ――――ah]

Witnessing a sight that should not be there, Subaru lost himself in that moment.

――Subaru’s mind had actually already reached an answer about where this unfamiliar space was.

In the first place, there was barely a single room in Roswaal’s Mansion where Subaru hadn’t set foot in, and he even had free access to the Forbidden Library in a sense―― so all that was left was the door which he had only touched twice, but never got to see the other side of. That is, the door inside the “Escape Passage”.

The first time, he was hindered by a spirit with gray fur, and the second time, he was chased away by a murdering maniac. So Subaru was never able to pass beyond that point.

And that was why, despite harboring a certain sense of distrust towards whatever was waiting beyond this room, he did not have any doubts that it would be a part of Roswaal’s Mansion, but,

[Subaru: Where is…… this?]

Stumped, he muttered this question stupidly at no one in particular.

Beyond the opened door, what panned out directly in front of Subaru was a cold, dark underground passage―― or not. Rather, it was a luscious green forest in the midst of vibrant nature, and what was even stranger, was that,

[Subaru: It’s, morning……?]

Gazing up towards the sky through the gaps between the trees, he saw the rising sun. Seeing the height of the sun, and the sensation of the morning wind blowing against his skin, Subaru’s mind was further racked by doubt.

By the time Subaru returned to the Mansion, it was already right before dusk. Counting the time spent in his conversation with Frederica, along with Elsa’s attack, Subaru would have been wounded just before midnight―― which would mean that, at this point, half a day had already passed.

[Subaru: While I was unconscious……!?]

As soon as he bit down on his tongue to commit suicide, Subaru fell unconscious. When he woke again, his wounds had been healed and he was so preoccupied with his failure to kill himself that he had forgotten to consider how much time had passed. Just how long had Subaru spent unconscious in the Library?

He remembered Beatrice calling it “A Place Detached From The Passage Of Time”. And while Subaru wasn’t sure just how literal that was meant to be,

[Subaru: If the savepoint gets overwritten because of this……!]

That would be an unthinkable situation.

Before his worst fear comes to pass and the state of reality is overwritten, he must immediately end his own life. And yet, another feeling was asserting its existence in direct conflict with this anxiety. That feeling was screaming:

――You must find out where this place is.

He didn’t know what would be the purpose of doing so. Considering all that had happened so far, and the malicious nature of Return By Death, he knew he should kill himself now.

But there was a horrifying calmness within Subaru that insisted this, despite fully understanding the circumstances he found himself in.

[Subaru: ――Kh, damnit!]

Kicking his foot into the ground and sending spit flying, Subaru sprinted into the forest ahead of him. Dashing through the gaps between the trees, his conversation with Petra in the escape tunnel surfaced in his mind.

The escape passage leads deep into the mountains behind the Mansion to a small cabin, where one might pick up emergency supplies and the like.

If that information can be relied on, then this should be that cabin in the mountains just now, and he would be running through the back mountains which he had already trekked though so many times before. But,

[Subaru: Was that the cabin? Where were the supply bags? And, in the first place…… looking like it’s been abandoned for ages, what kind of disaster relief infrastructure is that…… !?]

That strange place that Subaru saw contained more than enough evidence to support his sense of foreboding. There were too few similarities that actually matched Petra’s description. More importantly, if Frederica and Rem had been periodically maintaining it, there would be no explanation for the horrendous state of disrepair. This was something Subaru could say with confidence, knowing the work ethics of those two maids.

Passing through the forest, there was now another question, which would be the lack of a slope. The cabin was supposed to be in the mountains, but was it built somewhere without the slightest change in elevation for a hundred meters or more? Losing track of where he was, Subaru was racked by frustration for failing to see what he was trying to see.

Then, when his frustration and doubt had reached their limits, they were quickly and unexpectedly shattered.

Where the trees opened up, suddenly clearing his line of sight, Subaru skidded to a stop. The pavement, if it could still be called pavement in spite of the ragged condition it was in, was evidence that there were people frequently passing through here. And, more importantly, the rows of houses visible in the distance further indicated that there were people living on this land.

Taking this into his eyes, Subaru’s thoughts were taken hostage by shock in the truest sense of the phrase.

Because the scenery he saw was――

[Subaru: The, S-Sanctuary!?]

The place he had bid farewell to only half a day ago, and which by his estimation would require a whole day to return to.

He lifted his right hand in accordance with his horror. His fingers were still missing. Lost. Return by Death had not been activated. And yet, he was now standing in a place he did not belong.

[Subaru: Why…… am I here? Was it… Door Crossing……?]

There could be no other answer.

After being kicked out of the Mansion’s Forbidden Library by Beatrice, Subaru had been sent to a corner of the Sanctuary through Door Crossing. But how did this happen?

[Subaru: Is distance…… irrelevant? Yes, that one time I got transported from the Mansion to an animal stall in the village, but……]

Thinking in terms of distance, even that was still within permissible range. But considering the distance from the Mansion to the Sanctuary, this kind of long distance transportation was, to put it simply, beyond imagination and common sense.

Yet, considering the overabundance of supernatural powers he had witnessed so far, Subaru didn’t have much choice except to scratch his head and swallow it down.

[Subaru: Screw it! If I’m back in the Sanctuary then……ROSWAAL!!]

Sprint forth to that clown’s location and make him spit out every single one of his intentions.

Roswaal had always treated Beatrice cordially at the Mansion. That sorcerer must certainly know her origins and how she came to possess a Gospel.

If he knows but tries to toy with the ignorant Subaru, that will be fine as well. Even if he has to punch his nose in, burn him, rip him apart, and bite out his throat, he’d do it until that clown spills everything.

[Subaru: ――――!]

At this moment, completely forgetting the need to kill himself, Subaru started to run. His thoughts dyed red with the pure color of rage, he dashed to the edge of the forest, to the residence where Roswaal would be sleeping.

Transforming into an incarnation of Wrath, Subaru sped through the Sanctuary, forgetting his exhaustion and agony, drawn only towards his destination.

Kicking the door open with the same momentum, Subaru pushed into the house, baring his teeth,

[Subaru: ROSWAAL! SHOW YOUR FACE! THERE’S A MOUNTAIN OF THINGS I WANNA ASK YOU!]

Plunging forward violently in a way that would normally earn him a scolding from a maid, Subaru barked out his demands. Hearing no reply coming from the room, Subaru stomped forward with deafening steps and wrung the final door open,

[Subaru: No more playing dumb and no more lies. Start spilling everything you’ve been hiding and……]

As he was about to go on, Subaru’s voice trailed off.

Because, not only was the target of his condensed dissatisfaction absent, there was no one in the room to listen.

Gone. This fact only sent more boiling rage churning through Subaru’s mind. Kicking the bed as hard as he could, the pain on his toes only escalated his anger further as he stormed out of the house.

In that case, Roswaal must be at Lewes’ house―― meeting with Emilia, or perhaps discussing something with Lewes and Garfiel. Either way, becoming so active the moment Subaru was out of the picture, he certainly had the audacity. His timing to get up and running was so perfect, one might even suspect whether he had been faking it all this time.

As soon as suspicion was set on its course, negativity spiraled without interruption. With this completely dominating his thoughts, Subaru glared with sharpened eyes into the Sanctuary―― and, once again, realized too late.

[Subaru: ……Ah?]

It was early morning. As far as Subaru knew, that should be when the residents of the Sanctuary would begin preparing breakfast and washing themselves. Now that the refugees were gone, there was no need to cook mass meals, but each of the families would still need to cook.

They should, but there were no signs of such daily activities in sight. Rather, even before that,

[Subaru: It’s not just Roswaal…… where did everyone else go?]

Looking left and right, there was not a single person in sight.

Come to think of it, from the moment he left the forest and returned to the Sanctuary, he couldn’t recall having run into, or seen anyone on the way.

Even if he considered how there weren’t that many residents in the Sanctuary, to not bump into a single person in the dead center of the village was too improbable to ignore.

[Subaru: There’s no way……]

Shaking his head and trying to cast aside the nauseating sense of foreboding, Subaru knocked on the door of the nearest residence. He knocked, but confirming that there was no reply, he opened the door and peeked inside. ――No one.

In this house, there were supposed to be two beast-eared sisters living here.

One after another, Subaru looked inside every recognizable house, and every time his hope was betrayed, his disappointment mounted.

Everyone was missing, and there was no one here. The people of the Sanctuary had simply vanished.

[Subaru: Somebody! Anybody!? Where’d you all go!?]

The nauseating premonition accumulated.

He felt an anxiety and an inexplicable sense of loss.

During his showdown with the Witch Cult, the tragic memories of the Arlam village that welcomed Subaru, who had returned too late, resurfaced―― contorted, overlapping corpses, and innumerable faces of death in anguish and despair. Familiar faces drained of color, and Petra who would never move again.

[Subaru: ――――Aaaaagh!]

With terror coursing up Subaru’s back, the endless unease pushed him into a dash. A sound like a shriek escaped from his throat as he sped towards one singular place.

A one-of-a-kind building at the edge of the Sanctuary, a symbol of respect towards the matriarch of the village, and a place now lent to a single girl for her to place her bed.

[Subaru: ――Emilia!!]

Sprinting in while calling the name of the lovely girl, Subaru scanned the room.

A silver-haired girl with sleepy eyes looking back at Subaru, blinking several times with a surprised expression, saying [Good morning, Subaru] with a smile that made his chest ache――

[Subaru:――――]

In the place where she should be looking back at him, there was no one at all.

Running over to the bed, he touched his fingers to the disheveled sheets. There was no warmth, and whoever slept here had already left for a considerable amount of time.

Having made sure of this, Subaru dashed out of the house and directed his legs towards the final place he could go. The only place that could grant him an answer to this absurd, unreasonable senselessness.

[Subaru: Hahh……hahh……!]

Out of breath. Tasting blood in the back of his throat, Subaru arrived at the very end of the Sanctuary, at the Tomb in which the Witch of Greed, Echidona, was sleeping.

There was no Garfiel, sitting in the middle of the road, obstructing him. Nor was he in front of the Tomb, waiting for him. Was that a blessing, or would he rather have been blocked just so he could see a familiar face――?

[Subaru: No…… how could I even face him……]

As the one who couldn’t save his only sister, how could he bring himself to see him as though nothing had happened?

The relief Subaru felt at his absence, in spite of the unbearable anxiety of being unable to find anyone, and the way he was glossing over his own weakness, was truly grotesque.

Shaking his head to cast off such sentiments, Subaru stepped towards the Tomb before anything could interfere.

It was not time to initiate the Trial, but perhaps some action would be taken on the Witch’s side. Hoping this, and clinging to this hope, Subaru sought the Witch who might give answers to his questions――

[Subaru: ――Kh, hhu]

The moment he stepped forward, Subaru received a feeling as though something had passed through his body.

He slowly looked down. Under his chest, and above his lower abdomen, in the dead center of his torso―― there was a round, gaping hole the size of a fist.

[Subaru: Fff……ehh?]

Reaching out his hand, he tried to cover over the hole. A loud noise accompanied the massive volume of blood exploding out from the gap. Despite stuffing his palm over the opening, the hole penetrated all the way through his body and was still open on the back side. Unable to plug both sides at once, and having lost so much blood, his body could not even maintain its current posture and toppled to the ground.

――No, pain. Can’t, understand. What, happened?

Death. Dying. Going to die. At least, it’s certain that death was coming.

How, why, why here? Elsa? She tracked him this far? The distance between the Mansion and the Sanctuary… Beatrice, impossible. Gospel? Her, why? Rem… Who was it. Dying. Scared. What. Who. Emilia. Witch. Witch. Witc――

[Subaru: ――――a]

His vision began to haze. The end was approaching.

His anticipated death came in an unanticipated form. Subaru felt no relief that he was finally dying. Only, just briefly, he was afraid of death.

Even if he claimed to have resolved to die, death came to him in a different way than he had envisioned. His heart was thrown into disarray, his pathetic desire for life screamed, while his soul refused to be peeled away from this world―― yet, “Death” was slowly eroding Subaru,

[Subaru: ――so…weak]

His own powerlessness streaming down his useless cheeks, Subaru’s heart stopped beating.

His long-awaited death having arrived in this unexpected form, his lifeless face contorted in anguish and horror. The wretchedness of this death would be disputed by no one.

[???: ――――Kch]

With that sound, he was chewed.

-=Chapter 36 End=-

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