She wanted to live.
A minute before Zhan Yahui shot herself, she had only two choices with her.
Either she would meet her end as the Liu family killed her or she would kill herself to end what she started.
Which neither of the choices were she wished for. After spending her life and youth in hatred over a family who didn't deserve any of it, she really, desperately wished to live a life of freedom.
Free from her love for Ouyang Haitao that had bound her ever since she was a child and which made her blind in her thirst to destroy everything and anything that would come her way. She lived her life for his sake and now that her eyes had opened to the grim reality, she realized that she was too late in living her life for her own sake.
Whether she chose this way or that, death was what awaited her nevertheless. Her wish to live her life and her guilt to end her life were at odds. She could drop on her knees and beg Jun to spare her life. But she had gone so far with the damage that sparing her life just wasn't an option.
And now that she had seen the past life, she thought it was the only right thing to do to end her life herself.
The Liu family has already killed me once. It is only fair that I punish myself this time.
As she thought this, she gazed at Guiying one last time and remembered her suicide in the past life. She was a star that was supposed to shine but the loom of darkness was what got to her in the end.
It wasn't just Guiying's life she took but her love too. If she hadn't hurt Zixin, then they would have lived a happy life together. But she had snatched that happiness too.
And Hou Lin…
The only person in her life she considered as close to her. His last breath and the longing gaze of the past was burned in her heart.
I didn't want your end to be like this Lin…I don't want your end to be like this.
It was at that moment that Zhan Yahui knew what she had to do. She wanted to trade her life to protect Hou Lin's. That was the only way she knew to pay the price of killing a good man who died because of her in the past. She could bear any pain on her body but not on Hou Lin's. She knew that as long as she would be alive, Hou Lin would follow her to the ends of the earth. Even if it meant suffering the hellish death punishment along with her.
And the only way to make him stop was to leave for someplace so far where he wouldn't be able to follow her. She didn't waste any time before pulling the trigger because anymore time and she knew Hou Lin would step in to stop her at all costs.
She was now at a place where Hou Lin would never be able to reach her and as he saw her body collapse on the ground, a scream filled with agony and tears resounded in the air.
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He caught her before she touched the ground. The bullet hole in her temple and the blood dripping out made his gaze vacant. With his trembling hands, he held her.
He felt no movement. He felt no breaths.
Zhan Yahui was no more.
Hou Lin kept staring at her closed eyes in hopes that this would be all just his imagination because the Yahui he knew would never give up on her life. It had to be a joke. This could be another plan to escape.
But it was as if time remained still.
"Yahui…Yahui…!" His shaking hands patted her cheeks as tears fell from his eyes. His trembling fingers combed through her hair. But nothing had any reaction.
"Why…did you do this, Yahui…" his empty black orbs questioned her dead body even though he knew he wouldn't get an answer.
What has changed so much in a few seconds that Zhan Yahui suddenly pulled the trigger?
Did you…Did you really…leave me…?
The question kept circling in his mind and everytime its answer struck his heart like poison. Grief of her loss hadn't knocked on his door yet because the shock of seeing her dead in itself was hard to shake off.
"This cannot be. This cannot be. Yahui, you have to wake up! I know you are not a weak woman to do this! So…so what the hell is going on here!?"
On the other side, Jun and Ai were equally aghast with the sudden and sharp turn of events. One moment, she was aiming the gun to take Nian's life and the next moment, she suddenly took her own?
It was just a span of a few seconds that transpired but what changed in her so much that she suddenly felt guilty?
"Jun…!"
Ai ran to his side, hugging him. Zhan Yahui's sudden death shook her heart, and she found it difficult to breathe. It was true that Zhan Yahui was the source of all problems in their life but seeing her take her own life was unsettling in a sense.
"What…why did she…?"
Jun pulled her into his hug, his voice filled with disbelief too. "I don't know either, Ai. She was just ready to…shoot at Bro Nian. Then what did…? Ai, you don't think that she…saw the golden clock, right?"
Her eyes widened as she stared at him. "But why will she? Only we saw it because we are reborn. But Zhan Yahui isn't. And she didn't react the way...we did when we saw it the first time..."
"But she looked so different, Ai. I couldn't really notice it because everything happened so fast but something did happen with her. Otherwise, why would she suddenly change like that? Is it possible that she...saw the past life?"
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