Tsunade's sincere tears made Shizune slightly doubt his act. Be that as it may, she still considered her a close person, and therefore she stopped pressing, let go and hurried to explain:
"I know you too well... It just can't..."
But even when she tried, she only met the sad gaze of a lonely woman. Tsunade wasn't listening at all...
Shizune immediately became angry!
How can you behave like this? If you love, then you need to give everything for the sake of it!
Shizune immediately realized that simply supporting the cause will not help, a slap in the face is needed here! And filled with determination, she began to act:
Do you still care about Dan?
Tsunade slowly raised her trembling eyes.
This question brought her to her senses, and after the next one, her eyebrows twitched.
Or your virginity? Or maybe the inability to conceive?Resentment flickered in her eyes, sparkling with tears.
"Shizune… What are you…"
She touched on the most painful topics. It's already out of scope!
But she did not stop:
Or age? Oh wait... Maybe it's because of your bad habits? Few people know, but you love yourself so much…" Shizune giggled derisively, glancing between her legs.
- Oh you! "Tsunade's rage boiled up!"
But Shizune seemed to not care about the consequences - she dealt blow after blow. Her knowledge of this woman became a real weapon.
- Yeah... It's funny. Maybe you're worried that you fell in love with the boy? Or was his marriage so debilitating that you ran away with your tail between your legs? - Ridicules rained down one after another:
"Well, isn't it your fault?" If you had done anything, he wouldn't have married Hinata and then you could...
- Shut up! The resounding slap landed right on Shizune's cheek!
Tsunade could not restrain herself and hit ... The student flew off onto the bed and grabbed her face in shock.
"You... You... You don't know anything!" Tsunade growled.
"How dare you judge me? Her shoulders suddenly trembled, "It's not like that... What... What could I do?" Tears rolled down his face.
How could I be with him? He's so... so young... And I'm a pathetic old woman using Henge... A worthless virgin... Yes, if he saw me without this illusion...
It was the first time Shizune had seen her like this... shattered.
Tsunade sat down on the bed and twisted her lips bitterly.
"How could I take away his youth because of my selfish desires? We are from different generations ... We are simply not destined to be together. I had no right... No one would understand this. All I could do was just leave... I lost my chance in my youth. It doesn't matter if he married Hinata... We just couldn't be together. I had no illusions once I realized how I felt...
Her voice trembled, but Tsunade didn't cry, she just bowed her head in devastation.
My time is up, it's too late...
Silence reigned in the room. Shizune slowly stood up, rubbing her swollen cheek, and then looked at the sad silhouette to the side. Like a ghost At that moment, this strong and independent woman seemed to her the most lonely and abandoned ...
"Tsunade-sama...
The Fifth Hokage, a great kunoichi and a strict sensei now looked like the most ordinary girl suffering from unrequited love.
Sympathy flashed across Shizune's face. She used to be like that too. She considered herself unworthy, too old and unattractive. I was afraid to do at least something and drowned in loneliness.
One had only to imagine what Tsunade experienced, living with this for decades. She didn't purposely doom herself to this pain, Shizune knew that. You can't command your heart... Having fallen in love once and if you eventually ignore this feeling, it turns into an unbearable burden. Like a tumor growing day by day.
She probably would have been glad to forget, but she couldn't. Shizune went through all of this, and for Tsunade, it intensified exponentially. Due to constant escapes from reality, everything came to a worse end.
That's just... Naruto showed Shizune a new world. There was no pain in him and any experiences no longer mattered. He did not care about age and other people's condemnation - he could make anyone happy. Give them everything they want with all their hearts.
Unfortunately, Tsunade did not know this and continued to live in the past, constantly running away, shutting herself in. If things continue like this, she will forever remain with this regret and pain, alone.
Shizune couldn't let that happen.
- You're not right. She said bitterly, causing Tsunade to slowly turn around.
"Wh-what?"
Shizune couldn't use herself as an example and talk about how much her situation was similar to that of sensei, because she could make it worse. But she knew another way. The master will decide everything, she only had to make Tsunade stay and convince her not to run away this time.
Now that it's open, things are a lot easier.
"There is a way to stop feeling this pain.
Tsunade remained silent, looking at her student with subdued hope. She could express contempt with something like: "I already tried, why do you think I have been drinking for so many years?".
But, Shizune clearly knew about it. Then, was there really another way to forget?
Shizune got up from the bed, removed her hand from her red cheek and said seriously:
"You just need to do two things.
— Two?
- Right. First: stop hiding and then come with me and talk to him. Even if it's scary or ashamed, whatever it is... You need to meet him face to face and at least listen to what he has to say. If you run away again, then once again confirm your cowardice and you will become much worse.
Tsunade frowned. In a certain sense, she herself understood this. It's not that hard to do this...
— And... And what's the second?
— It's simple. Shizune smiled confidently, "You need to find peace."
- What nonsense...
"Hmm, I knew you would say that. Alcohol and games - no peace! I'm not talking about ways to escape from reality, but about a method to accept yourself and move on.
Shizune knew the best way to do it, but Tsunade was not worth knowing about yet. As soon as the first step is taken, everything will happen by itself. In the process, the Master simply makes her gain lightness and perfection of spirit. In addition, knowing from her own experience, Shizune had no doubt that Tsunade, even with her stubbornness in the process, would accept the situation, if only because of her feelings for him.
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